Last day at work. Guess this is it for a 9-5 job for a few weeks (hopefully I'll have another soon).
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Friday, May 26, 2006
26-May-2006
Regarding this post , it's all still there. I drive by every day to and from work. There was a procession as well I had to stop for.
Linux
As much as I love the online community, there are some things that just annoy me. Like bad instructions. I'm gonna try and run the FluxBox install again when I get back. Didn't run right the first time (I've never complied from source before
). I'm really looking forward to next week. Between all the job searching, I get to work on my computers! This is gonna be fun. I'm learning a lot. I'm trying to figure out the best way to get Ubuntu x64 on my main computer so I can start working with Wine to get my "slashitydeath" (as Amber would say) Windows only games working. Woot for porting 
.
Everything Else
God, life sucks some times. It looks as though I'm condemned to spend the rest of my life just out of reach of the things I want most in life. I would be fine if these things weren't right in front of me and all around me all the time. It's like being in the middle of the ocean with no life vest and no matter how hard you swim, the lifeboat stays exactly ten feet away. Worst thing is, I don't know what I'm swimming for. Am I looking for a life preserver? A raft? A coastguard boat? A cruise liner? Yeah. I have had more time to think lately, and this is what I've been thinking about.
Linux
As much as I love the online community, there are some things that just annoy me. Like bad instructions. I'm gonna try and run the FluxBox install again when I get back. Didn't run right the first time (I've never complied from source before
). I'm really looking forward to next week. Between all the job searching, I get to work on my computers! This is gonna be fun. I'm learning a lot. I'm trying to figure out the best way to get Ubuntu x64 on my main computer so I can start working with Wine to get my "slashitydeath" (as Amber would say) Windows only games working. Woot for porting . Everything Else
God, life sucks some times. It looks as though I'm condemned to spend the rest of my life just out of reach of the things I want most in life. I would be fine if these things weren't right in front of me and all around me all the time. It's like being in the middle of the ocean with no life vest and no matter how hard you swim, the lifeboat stays exactly ten feet away. Worst thing is, I don't know what I'm swimming for. Am I looking for a life preserver? A raft? A coastguard boat? A cruise liner? Yeah. I have had more time to think lately, and this is what I've been thinking about.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
25-May-2006
News
Congrats Nathan and Emily on the big day Saturday!
Woo Hoo! DSL!
I installed Ubuntu Hoary Hedgehog last night, and am currently running the update to Breezy Badger. I love the version names in Linux distros. Where the heck did "Vista" come from? Go open-source! (dual meaning)
Now that the DSL is hooked up, I can do all this. Quickly. Thanks Ma and Rich for letting me pay to get DSL. It's nice to finally be back online.
Congrats Nathan and Emily on the big day Saturday!
Woo Hoo! DSL!
I installed Ubuntu Hoary Hedgehog last night, and am currently running the update to Breezy Badger. I love the version names in Linux distros. Where the heck did "Vista" come from? Go open-source! (dual meaning)
Now that the DSL is hooked up, I can do all this. Quickly. Thanks Ma and Rich for letting me pay to get DSL. It's nice to finally be back online.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
24-May-2006
Originally written on May 23, 2006 @ 6:31 PM
Life is Too Short
I went to the cemetery on Elm Hill right by school after work today. As I was walking around, I found this one headstone that was fairly new. It caught my attention for one reason. I could barely see it. It wasn't overgrown, and it was set perfectly in the ground. I couldn't see it because of what had been placed on it yesterday. Yesterday was May 22nd. You see, the dates that were on it read as follows:
May 22, 1999
September 17, 1999
There was a candle in the shape of a "7" that had been partially burned and blown out. There were a handful of toy cars and an action figure laying on it from siblings, no doubt. There were some balloons from parents, I'm sure. There was an uneaten cupcake on the side.
I don't know why those dates were on there other than that they belonged to that child. I would suppose some disease or perhaps something genetic. It didn't say. But as you know, that is less than four months. Four months. I'm 240 months old.
I never knew my oldest sister. Denise died a few hours after birth because of a genetic flaw, four years before I was born. I have two sisters, but I have only met one. I have three siblings, but only lived with two.
My dad died two years ago this past March. My grandparents all passed away before I was old enough to get to know any of them well. People at church pass away. A close friend's grandfather passed away a few weeks back. People die.
So, my question is, "Why does it matter so much to us?" Why do we make such a big deal about such stupid things? Why would we stop talking to someone because he or she forgot to send a note card? Why would we ignore a family member? Why wouldn't we take time for friends? Why would we allow one horrible incident to so consume us that it changes who we are? Why would we take our focus off of God?
Life is too short. No one will be here forever. Many of us have less time than anyone could know. If you die tomorrow, or in ten minutes, will everyone know you served God's purpose for your life in the life of those around you? Will you say I did?
Life is Too Short
I went to the cemetery on Elm Hill right by school after work today. As I was walking around, I found this one headstone that was fairly new. It caught my attention for one reason. I could barely see it. It wasn't overgrown, and it was set perfectly in the ground. I couldn't see it because of what had been placed on it yesterday. Yesterday was May 22nd. You see, the dates that were on it read as follows:
May 22, 1999
September 17, 1999
There was a candle in the shape of a "7" that had been partially burned and blown out. There were a handful of toy cars and an action figure laying on it from siblings, no doubt. There were some balloons from parents, I'm sure. There was an uneaten cupcake on the side.
I don't know why those dates were on there other than that they belonged to that child. I would suppose some disease or perhaps something genetic. It didn't say. But as you know, that is less than four months. Four months. I'm 240 months old.
I never knew my oldest sister. Denise died a few hours after birth because of a genetic flaw, four years before I was born. I have two sisters, but I have only met one. I have three siblings, but only lived with two.
My dad died two years ago this past March. My grandparents all passed away before I was old enough to get to know any of them well. People at church pass away. A close friend's grandfather passed away a few weeks back. People die.
So, my question is, "Why does it matter so much to us?" Why do we make such a big deal about such stupid things? Why would we stop talking to someone because he or she forgot to send a note card? Why would we ignore a family member? Why wouldn't we take time for friends? Why would we allow one horrible incident to so consume us that it changes who we are? Why would we take our focus off of God?
Life is too short. No one will be here forever. Many of us have less time than anyone could know. If you die tomorrow, or in ten minutes, will everyone know you served God's purpose for your life in the life of those around you? Will you say I did?
Monday, May 22, 2006
22-May-2006
Birthdays
Saturday was my birthday. It was so much fun! We went to RenFest all day, and then swing dancing all night. It was a great way to spend my birthday. A whole group of us went down together, and we got a group rate, but as soon as we got there, everyone took off, so Amber and I just hung out together. Watched Human Chess, the Joust, The Roses (music group), and a few other things. We spent a lot of time in the shops looking at different trinkets, rings, and bracers. Can't make my own ring on the same scale as what was there, so I bought one of the celtic weaves. But, for the price of those bracers, I could make a few sets of my own. I'm gonna finish the coif i've been making and start a hauberick this summer. I need to find some boots and pants that look more authentic. I have a canvis shirt and a cape that will work quite well. I think I found a noble weaver to commission for the making of the padding under my armor. Then, it'll be time to find a sword.
I love RenFest. I wish there were more in the area with a larger venue. I would love working at something like that.
Swing dancing is awsome. I went Saturday night, and then socialized at the Lindy on Sunday. I plan to start up some lessons soon, so the final details are to find out when and how much $$. The main dances on Saturday nights ended this week, so I gotta look around for the best place to replace those with. This should be interesting.
I'm working on narrowing down which gamer shirts I want to buy to brag about my WoW addiction. I should be posting some pics on here soon of my characters. Well, back to work. I'll be posting again sometime.
Saturday was my birthday. It was so much fun! We went to RenFest all day, and then swing dancing all night. It was a great way to spend my birthday. A whole group of us went down together, and we got a group rate, but as soon as we got there, everyone took off, so Amber and I just hung out together. Watched Human Chess, the Joust, The Roses (music group), and a few other things. We spent a lot of time in the shops looking at different trinkets, rings, and bracers. Can't make my own ring on the same scale as what was there, so I bought one of the celtic weaves. But, for the price of those bracers, I could make a few sets of my own. I'm gonna finish the coif i've been making and start a hauberick this summer. I need to find some boots and pants that look more authentic. I have a canvis shirt and a cape that will work quite well. I think I found a noble weaver to commission for the making of the padding under my armor. Then, it'll be time to find a sword.
I love RenFest. I wish there were more in the area with a larger venue. I would love working at something like that. Swing dancing is awsome. I went Saturday night, and then socialized at the Lindy on Sunday. I plan to start up some lessons soon, so the final details are to find out when and how much $$. The main dances on Saturday nights ended this week, so I gotta look around for the best place to replace those with. This should be interesting.
I'm working on narrowing down which gamer shirts I want to buy to brag about my WoW addiction. I should be posting some pics on here soon of my characters. Well, back to work. I'll be posting again sometime.
Monday, May 15, 2006
Friday, May 12, 2006
12-May-2006
Currently Listening
Ultimate Big Band Theme Collection
By Ultimate Big Band Theme Collection
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Ultimate Big Band Theme Collection
By Ultimate Big Band Theme Collection
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
10-May-2006
So Tired
I've been sick for a week now exactly (Wednesday evening last week I started coming down with this cold). I'm reaching that point where I'm just exhausted physically, and I'm getting there emotionally. If I snap at you, I'm sorry! I really don't mean it. I'm just too tired to be reminded about bills and deadlines and everything else. I'm gonna be working for another week and a half depending on what the department works out. They may be asking me to stay on longer, or I may be leaving at the original agreed upon time. Right now, though, I really just need some sleep. I am flat out weak from the flu or whatever attacking my body.
Church right after work (we'll see if I get dinner in the middle or not). Then hopefully back to home for some sleep.
I've been sick for a week now exactly (Wednesday evening last week I started coming down with this cold). I'm reaching that point where I'm just exhausted physically, and I'm getting there emotionally. If I snap at you, I'm sorry! I really don't mean it. I'm just too tired to be reminded about bills and deadlines and everything else. I'm gonna be working for another week and a half depending on what the department works out. They may be asking me to stay on longer, or I may be leaving at the original agreed upon time. Right now, though, I really just need some sleep. I am flat out weak from the flu or whatever attacking my body.
Church right after work (we'll see if I get dinner in the middle or not). Then hopefully back to home for some sleep.
Tuesday, May 9, 2006
9-May-2006
Traffic 
So, pknaz (Nate), I now know your pain... sort of. Actually, other than it taking 30 minutes instead of 10-15 minutes to get to school, traffic wasn't too bad. Just really slow. For no reason (a curve in the interstate is not a valid reason to slow down - they aren't that sharp). But life goes on, and I'm glad to have given myself a half hour for the drive. If there was actually an accident, though...
Structure, Workflow, and Organizational Charts
I
ITS </sarcasm>
So, pknaz (Nate), I now know your pain... sort of. Actually, other than it taking 30 minutes instead of 10-15 minutes to get to school, traffic wasn't too bad. Just really slow. For no reason (a curve in the interstate is not a valid reason to slow down - they aren't that sharp). But life goes on, and I'm glad to have given myself a half hour for the drive. If there was actually an accident, though...
Structure, Workflow, and Organizational Charts
I
ITS </sarcasm> Monday, May 8, 2006
8-May-2006
Blah
(not exact)
German: so ist Leben
Spanish: tal es vida
French: telle est la vie
All I can say: such is life
This saying comes to my mind every time the crap hits the fan. It's just the way it goes. There's not much you can do to change most of it, and all you can do is get out the mop and bucket when it's done (and pray no one throws more before you're done with this batch).
Sometimes I think to myself, "Yesterday sucked and today isn't looking much better. But just maybe tomorrow is my day...."
Graduation
Saturday was cool. Never graduated before (side effect of being home schooled and bypassing all official channels). Now I have honors cords, a tassel, and a degree. It's weird. I don't feel any smarter than I did last week. I don't feel any different. Nothing has changed, other than that I didn't have to register for classes in the fall. Moved out on Friday, back to work on Monday. I was expecting something... different. Not sure what exactly. I just guess I would feel official. Guess that just comes over time. And moving perhaps. Or maybe a new job or something. I dunno.
I just wish I didn't have this feeling that I'm missing something major. You see, there's this hole that has nothing in it. Everything I've tried to fit in it, I've pulled back out, because none of it fit right. And no, I'm not talking about a God sized hole. This is something else. I just wish I could wrap around this thing and figure it out. I've been analyzing it for the last year very seriously, and I still haven't gotten it. I'm just gonna keep praying...
(not exact)
German: so ist Leben
Spanish: tal es vida
French: telle est la vie
All I can say: such is life
This saying comes to my mind every time the crap hits the fan. It's just the way it goes. There's not much you can do to change most of it, and all you can do is get out the mop and bucket when it's done (and pray no one throws more before you're done with this batch).
Sometimes I think to myself, "Yesterday sucked and today isn't looking much better. But just maybe tomorrow is my day...."
Graduation
Saturday was cool. Never graduated before (side effect of being home schooled and bypassing all official channels). Now I have honors cords, a tassel, and a degree. It's weird. I don't feel any smarter than I did last week. I don't feel any different. Nothing has changed, other than that I didn't have to register for classes in the fall. Moved out on Friday, back to work on Monday. I was expecting something... different. Not sure what exactly. I just guess I would feel official. Guess that just comes over time. And moving perhaps. Or maybe a new job or something. I dunno.
I just wish I didn't have this feeling that I'm missing something major. You see, there's this hole that has nothing in it. Everything I've tried to fit in it, I've pulled back out, because none of it fit right. And no, I'm not talking about a God sized hole. This is something else. I just wish I could wrap around this thing and figure it out. I've been analyzing it for the last year very seriously, and I still haven't gotten it. I'm just gonna keep praying...
Thursday, May 4, 2006
4-May-2006
So, right now I'm gonna go fix someone's computer in Trevecca Towers and after that I'm gonna try and finish packing. Oh, and guess what! I'm sick again. Soar throath and nausia. I'll get over it with some sleep, I'm sure. I should be moved out of the apartment tonight or early tomorrow. Family starts arriving tonight.
This is gonna be wierd. The thing that has been my life for the last five years is about to just disappear. Talk about strange. I knew who I was in college. Now I get to figure out who I am in the work world (where I don't really belong yet). I'm sure God'll show me something to do.
This is gonna be wierd. The thing that has been my life for the last five years is about to just disappear. Talk about strange. I knew who I was in college. Now I get to figure out who I am in the work world (where I don't really belong yet). I'm sure God'll show me something to do.
Tuesday, May 2, 2006
2-May-2006
YES!
I'm done with college. I'm very relieved. I had my last presentation for my final project in Video Art/Web Broadcasting class. Great job, Amber. Everyone said they liked what we did with it. So now I'm chillin in the caf hanging for one of the last few times with some friends. Well, I need to go eat now and then pack for a while before either sleeping or getting on WoW. I'll have to post more later. Pray for me; moving always depresses me.
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