6-Jan-2005

How in the world does Xanga not have a currently: Playing (Game) option to tag on as extras?  I want the world to know chances are if I'm posting, I just got done playing Half-Life 2.  That game is so great, even though it still doesn't render quite right.  I think it has something to do with DirectX 9b and my video drivers, which are 2 years old.  And when I tried to update my video drivers from Dell's support site, it crashed my video and I had to restart in safe mode and roll back to my original drivers - loving XP's recovery features, too bad you have to use them so much.  Video drivers tend to crash when you try to update them.  I think my computer is ready for a format and clean install of all drivers (updated ones).

Florida was great.  I got about half the computer stuff sorting done, and even fit in a small lan party and a half hour at the beach (which was very relaxing, and I only took a roll of film while I was there, I normally take more).  Too bad it was overcast, I need work on my tan.

I'm glad to be back in Nashville.  Going out to eat tonight .  I like being able to use the caffeteria being closed as an excuse to go out... and my fridge is empty, gave all the perishables to my sister before I left.  BTW, thanks to CIT for the Christmas gift I'm using to eat out tonight.

Well, I'm trying to keep these shorter.  Just one last thing:

While at home I got really depressed.  For two days I couldn't figure out why, but then it hit me: I'm an 18.5 year old who is a senior in college with a diceased dad and a mom who just got re-married, a brother who is married in another state, a sister who is about to graduate (and is currently dating and looking at places to work when she does graduate).  I have a few possibilities for jobs when I graduate, but nothing is for sure on those.  I'm going to graduate in a year and a half, am not/don't need to be dating, and don't know where I want to live or how God will use me to work what he has called me to.  I was basically terrified that I was this young and winding up to start out on my own in life.  But then I reallized that God has all of that taken care of.  He knows what is best for me and what the future holds, so I don't need to.  I realized that while I do have an effect on my future, I don't need to worry about it.  I can sit back and enjoy the ride we all call life.  I know some one who is taking care of me.  And that is enough to make me content.  I love God so much!!!